Last day;last regret.
Friday, October 09, 2009
To
whoever,
9 October 2009 marks the official last day in Orchird Park. I'll really miss going to classes as a whole class. From today onwards I insya'allah I will look back fondly at all the memories and footprints(Preenz!!XD) left in this humble little school.
To everyone I've- glanced,
glared, scowled,
maki-ed,
laughed, joked, cried, smiled,
adore, I'll really miss you guys. To my lovely
4S3sters I love you all. We've went through alot, it made us stronger and more matured(or abit) as a person. I wish every single one of you will get through life as sucessfully as possible. We only live once right? So we better give it our all. Nothing is more regretful than realising you've not given your all. That's why I'll stop doing things so half-heartedly. I don't want to have any regrets lingering and making me feel down.
Never again.
I know I'll strangely miss studyimg and doing homework. I'll miss the naggings. I'll miss sitting in a plastic chair and table while complaining about the humid weather. I'll miss the
damnation of a bus service called 811.
I'll really miss it all. Four years, FOUR FREAKKIN' YEARS! It's along time. I've grown emotionally-ettached to this colour-coordinally challenged school. The first day I stepped into the school and saw the queer-looking fountain and dreading to know I'll be studying in a park. On Orchird Park to be exact. Time flies by, real
FAST. Now I'm 19 days to
O-Levels, 9 more days to being
SIXTEEN. I can't believe it. I haven't even had the chance to breathe. Had I known things would have turned out this way, I'd started to study last year. The sad truth was that I didn't know. Nobody told me explicitly how fast it will go. The future is unknown.
Though there were times I wished I could have just stole a few moments I'n my past and redid them the way I wanted to, I'll never do that if it's even possible to. I don't regret living and breathing through those moments and seconds and I won't think I'll have it anyother way either. I won't, because if those life-changing events did not happen, I won't become the Hazeerah you've all came to know today. I may have been oblivious or either spiteful to some people, if I have, I sincerly apologize. I don't hate people, I felt dissapointment.
Deep dissapointment that things have turned out things they are. I guess..somethings just happen. Like..I just so happen to be born one month late. If I was born in September when I was supposed to be born,would I be like I am today? Most probably not.
Through it all, I'll leave the past behind. A new arc has began. A new page has been flipped open and a new beginning awaits. Still, the fact
I have been friends with every single one of you still remain. Everyone of you 4S3 and OPSS friends will stay etched like the stills of a movie film in my memories forever.
How about this, forever is overrated, I'll make them timeless.
Love,
Hazeerah.